Transient regret,wrought,repeatedly
time,rewound and replayed,then and now
deja vu - redux concoction,deadly
feverish beads of sweat cling to the brow
Silent shadow of trepidation,tailed
ready for ambush,if unheeded,refrain
potential amelioration,wantonly curtailed
left only to revel in time's vestigial remains
Fallacies held in high esteem,fallen
from grace,to the nadir of acceptance
hope ,now dispersed in fine pollen
the heart now wanders,freelance
"I want it back",my heart bemoans
on replaying stashed memories
incongruous to current revelries
instead,warped in lost time zones
trade-offs bordering toward compromise
progress bequeathed,surprisingly,deserved?
questioning myself on such vagaries,absurd
still stuck in twilight,waiting for the red giant to rise
transcending reality,hallucinating fantasies
lost never to be found,fragrance still lingers
crushed into fragments,by insensitive fingers
would it be any better to act delirious with infantine delinquencies?
Sanguine was my heart
a lilting melody played on, byheart
of memories that bequeath joy and sorrow
refusing to leave,till eternal tomorrow
ameloriating hope and reviving dreams,lost
now lay melting, the ice and frost
by thinking of clinging to her warmth
taciturn she remained,having led me to harm
inflecting all notions and trust
that have been laid down now to die of rust
overweighed by anguish and catharsis
'twas doomed from its genesis
The pangs of unfound glory
keep roaring in agony
my ode to joy
transposed to a bittersweet symphony
haunting melodies with multiple cadences
interrupted
let the music play on
for hope to be resurrected
I crave tranquility
and conversely I crave redemption
come back to grant me serenity
come back to grant me elation
make my twisted mind of jealousy and hate
turn toward love and reason
all my leaves have fallen
I'm downcast
its been a long leaving season
I've been knocking on your door,trying to get inside your crib
I dont wanna get my knuckles sore,just lemme be on this trip
lemme get inside your head,take me to your sacred places
girl,I aint posing no threat,I just wanna run through your minds mazes
I wanna hear your inner voices and delve in your thoughts
I wanna understand your choices,but please dont make me draw lots
lemme be part of your dreams,lemme walk beside you
lemme swim in your streams,but dont leave me down and blue
I'm tryin to figure you out,but I need your help to get me started
I know you have your doubts,but please dont leave my hopes thwarted
you dont know me yet, but dont think of me as just someone in a sea of faces
girl,I aint posing no threat,I just wanna run through your minds mazes
It has punctured holes in my boat
I've come to the end of the tale she wrote
a tale of despair and heartbreak
I'm think I'm gonna drown in this lake
the truth delayed is as bad as lying
she didnt know that and I was buying
now I know the twain shall never meet
its the eternal season of trick or treat
its what I call the halloween of love
I've called truce and released the white dove
Theres a whole lotta things goin on
its aint new,been goin on for long
I'm sick of being put on trial
its been a while since I smiled
why does everybody have to fake it
these damn illusions,I cant take it
the fetid air around me smells like bile
and its been a while since I smiled
disease of loneliness' got me infected
it sure aint what I wanted or expected
forming bonds does require a lotta guile
its been a while since I smiled
I should never have locked myself in my closet
no water ever seems to flow outta the faucet
I have no ones number on speed dial
amd its been a while since I smiled
but dont blame me for not tryin to reach out
I do my bit,but I always strike out
why do I havta walk that extra mile
its been a while since I smiled
I'm sippin water out of a broken glass
no desire to get high,no need for grass
I've got no craving to get sauced or stoned
I'm feeling like a fish thats been boned
the hucksters been sent back on his way
I never did like him or want him to stay
hes got other naive people to fool
hes gonna drown them in their own pool
I'm sippin water out of a broken glass
my veins are ready to explode,they've reached critical mass
I've got no craving to get sauced or stoned
I feel like a king that's just been dethroned
the clowns have been sent away
its manic depression in the middle of may
the verdicts out,its judgement day
sentenced for life,they're gonna put me away
I'm sippin water out of a broken glass
my sea of sorrow now seems so vast
I've been abandoned and left behind,all alone
these sins that've led me here are all my own
the hangman has been sent for,he's almost here
I can feel the noose tighten,I can feel the fear
I'm being released from this mortal hell
but I'm gonna ride straight to heaven,I think I'm gonna be well
Redemption seems far away
but fate looks right this way
I've been running like hell
aint counting the times I fell
Its just me and the road
nothings gonna leave me floored
no ones after me,and theres no one I'm after
when I look away,I hear manic laughter
I'm losing my grip on reality
my eyes glazing with insanity
someone better have me caged
I'm a wounder tiger,enraged
I aint committed no crime
yet I'm treated like grime
they think they're so clean
lookit the roles they feign
surrounded by people so blind
in a web they've got 'em entwined
they're full of crap and deceit
they lie shamlessly thru their teeth
but I've seen their true colors
all a bunch of oarless scullers
I'll make sure they sink to the bottom
of that river,and I'll yell "got 'em"
Wading in the shallow pools of sorrow
never seen summer,nor heard spring
of withered leaves and shrivelled trees
illusions are all that one can cling to
of songbirds and their tunes of joy
of eternal springs and pristine streams
that water plethoric beds of violets and daffodils
seeping through to the undergrowth
and granting eternal hope for those yet to bloom
the very soul of dreams and beyond
fraught with pretentious perils and shallow temptations
enticing pain and ecstacy with its double edged blade
gilded with jewel stones of courage and fear
each vision chosen by the eye with its natural perspective
of paramount importance lay the choices we make
and the paths that leads us to glory or perdition
to enchanted woods or arid wastelands
falter in action but never in consent
blame shant fall on fellow pedestrians
but on the vote cast by the mind without the heart
never flinch for choice is inevitable
in all its sadistic glory it shall prevail
'twill be a worthy fellow traveller if not a guide
that equips us for sculpting our destiny
Fancy words dont charm her,
theres no use getting lyrical
coz she'll always remain cynical
yer never gonna turn the corner
does it make you sick?
pay a visit to the cynic clinic
acting nice dont please her
being a gent wont really pay
with her you're never in the fray
she'll think you're trying to con her
does it make you feel like a prick?
pay a visit to the cynic clinic
you might start acting kooky
that turns her on like crazy
but you're too mature for that you see
thats how it crumbles,the cookie
cant figure out what makes her tick?
pay a visit to the cynic clinic
now and then she'll give you a peek
to revive yer sagging hope
you'll feel high like yer on dope
she'll then knock you down, you freak
do you need a walkin stick?
pay a visit to the cynic clinic
you'll get back on yer feet
and start lookin elsewhere
you'll forget her you swear
but ya know thats no mean feat
looking to learn a new trick?
pay a visit to the cynic clinic
and when you find new dames
you'll start comparing them to her
you'll have to play those mind games
when will you learn you square?
does it make you sick?
pay a visit to the cynic clinic
she'll twirl you around her finger
and cut you like a saw
she'll hate you if you linger
whatever ya do she'll hum and haw
with a ring you'll propose
you'll getdown on your knees
you will try poetry and prose
but you'll never feel at ease
do you feel yer mind swimming?
stay away from roulette wheel women
she knows what you want
she'll test your resolve
and make you think you cant
she'll tell you that you need to evolve
you'll fall for her head over heels
and tell her that she makes you complete
you'll think thats how she too feels
you'll think no one else can compete
do you feel yer mind swimming?
stay away from roulette wheel women
she'll say you're a crazy fool
she'll say you dont understand her needs
she'll tellya to get back to love school
she'll tellya to sow a bunch of new seeds
you just dont get it,do you
you'll never learn the tricks of the trade
you'll only end up a deep shade of blue
and your painful memories wont fade
do you feel yer mind swimming?
stay away from roulette wheel women
Her personal paradise awaits her
her Quilon of glorious dawns
yet she chooses to linger
and bear the loneliness it spawns
she misses the smell of seaweed and salt
and the grains of sand in her shoes
she longs to reopen her memory vault
the lady’s got the backwater blues
she's charmed us with her poise and grace
and disarmed us with her smile, so kind
blessed are those who’s love she's embraced
a better friend you'd never find
she's surrounded by poets and pirates
who've tried to board her cruise
but she's warded off all their threats
the lady’s got the backwater blues
she’s trapped in this city by the bay
but she's got the key to her cage
when its time, she'll go on her way
it wont be long before she turns her page
once she's gone you'll miss her badly
when she was around you wonder how time flew
to get even a minute back, you'd give yourself gladly
the lady’s going ….. going …coz the lady’s got the backwater blues
the curtains've come down, yesterdays shows ended
another act added, and a new image rendered
where do you draw the line between real and fake?
how much more of this crap do I havta take?
ya keep selling out,all yer wares're fully sold
but when areya gonna do right,and face up to the cold
can you look me in the eye and speak nuthin but the truth
but I know ya wont,coz yer a liar who bit the forbidden fruit
I've had enough of yer theatrics, yer gimmicks and gags
yu've been at it all night,under yer eyes I see 'em bags
why dont ya quit playin the melancholy whore
ya gotta get outta this rut,just walk outta the door
when will you stop going back for encores,
ya gotta learn to stop yer ship and drop anchor
that would keepya away from those hungry beasts
you can still repent yer sins,go and 'fess to the priest
but ya keep gettin down on all fours,like some horny bitch
ya never close yer doors,they walk in and out of yer pitch
they laugh at you when ya leave and talk filthy trash
not one would come to help,if your wagon were to crash
in case ya didnt know I'm still here waiting for you
come and cry on my shoulders,I'll help you start anew
I'll take you home if only you accept that yer mine
I'll give my word that everything will turn out fine
I gotta take you far away,else yer gonna go nuts
but ya gotta promise me you wont talk ifs and buts
I'll bathe you and clean you ,I'll make you pure
girl,you must realise that yer my only cure
Lemme tellya the story of a man I knew
about his unbuilt castles and unslain dragons
his uncovered treasures and unsown seeds
he knew his wants but not his needs
if he'd set his sights,he woulda gone far
if he'd jumped higher,he woulda raised the bar
if only he fought he woulda ruled the ring
but he was the man who wouldnt be king
he never got over his fear of winning
thought he did right,but he was sinning
his numerous talents he'd failed to hone
and so he never got to claim his throne
he always dreamt big,but never acted
and so all his desires lay fractured
his ascent was halted by a broken wing
he was the man who wouldnt be king
the choices he's made,have rendered him stagnant
now he wishes he'd seen more by being a vagrant
'coz he never travelled far,he stuck to his zone
he marched to a lifeless beat,and always rode alone
you can bet your life he was better than the best
but no one cared to ask him out of his nest
"what coulda been",you'll hear him sing
he was the man who wouldnt be king
my conscience is wobbling along in a wheelbarrow
regret biting in deep,right down to my marrow
its gettin harder to shake it offa my shoulder
its firm,icy grip is only gonna get colder
I'd been walkin down the wrong direction
no puddles of water to show my true reflection
I'd been pulled over by doubts many enterprises
my minds been feeding on compromises
my brushes lay unused beneath my empty canvass
I shoulda never broke the needle in my compass
the ghosts of forgotten dreams come to haunt me
I didnt heed them then so now they dont want me
ther're germs of fear multiplying in my brain
my high hopes had been exercising refrain
I'd been riding along on false premises
my minds been feeding on compromises
I'd been concerned over wasting blood and sweat
I paid the price and became a lowly silhouette
the stallions of opportunity have galloped away
I shoulda mounted them and rode my own way
yesterday and tomorrow,the gap seems pretty wide
but I can still make it coz theres time on my side
I'm gonna havta stop lying to my soul
I've gotta dig myself outta this hole
this time I'm gonna be visitin detours I'd passed
and I wont let no fool make me feel outclassed
my rusted faculties I will alchemise
gotta stop my mind from feeding on compromises
My backyards full of frozen leaves
houses been ransacked by thieves
I'm still waitin for the dust to settle
my bed of roses have thorns but no petals
I'm weaving clothes outta broken looms
gotta stop cleaning my empty rooms
redemption is the only thing I crave
gotta stop them from digging my grave
thinkin about deflated egos and broken prides
I see undeserving men with their lovely brides
who derive their riches outta being fake
thats one thing I'd never do even if alls at stake
I see their plastered smiles and hollow eyes
the game was rigged before I rolled my dice
no damsels in distress waiting to be saved
gotta stop them from digging my grave
siftin through layers of despair and doubt
I dont think I'm guilty but the jurys still out
but who're they to judge me and put me on trial
a bunch of fools who'd be glad to have me exiled
but its over now I guess,I'm falling from grace
everything seems foggy now,its just a haze
I've lost my battles,in vain I tried being brave
I tried but couldnt stop them from digging my grave
wont you tell me where I'm headed
I'm afraid I haven't got a clue
I'm running blind,as I've always dreaded
clear my clouds,make the sky blue
guide me through this dark wood
rid me of that shadow called fear
If I could turn back,I would
but the future beckons...change is near
wont you tell me where I'm headed
when do I get to start anew
dreams turn to nightmares leaving me jaded
I've lost focus,my visions skewed
guide me through this dark wood
drive away those wild beasts
that prey on me for their food
free my arms,grant me release
wont you tell me where I'm headed
when is my lucky number due
I find my hopes being shredded
it feels like I'm walking on glue
guide me through this dark wood
bathe me with glorious sunshine
how long do I sit and brood
before I can claim whats mine
wont you tell me where I'm headed
this time I mean it,I'll be true
my unsure ways I would have mended
I'll start afresh...as I taste the morning dew
Staring at the monotonous flicker
trying to make some sense of it all
wondering if it could get any sicker
drones seperated by a cubicle wall
slaving for the unseen queen bee
they're all afraid to reason or rebel
the paychecks all that they see
in a quarry they're just a pebble
burning the midnight oil all night long
wondering when they'll see daylight
they'll never see right or wrong
never will they put up a fight
but soon the time will come
when they will take a stand
till then all you'll hear is the drum
and them marching past the band
and before they know it
their lifes passed them by
they'll think of their story never writ
all the while they've been living a lie
There’re plenty of voices inside my head,
they fill me with joy, they fill me with dread
gotta lay them to rest, so I got choices to make
but I'm afraid to choose, 'coz my life’s at stake
they tell me I'll fly, they tell me I'll fall
they tell me I'll win or I'll lose it all
they pose questions, a lotta rhetoric
but I've got multiple answers, coz I'm schizophrenic
there're plenty of voices inside my head
some keep swimming, some sink like lead
they make me laugh ,they make me cry
I talk back, but they never reply
some of them prophesize, some of them preach
they sound near, but they're outta reach
they do yoga and practice black magic
they've got me hooked, coz I'm schizophrenic
there're plenty of voices inside my head
they wont leave me alone till I'm dead
they've led me to love, and led me to war
they've left behind bruises and scars
some of them play, some of them prey
some of them kneel down to pray
some of them cure me, some make me sick
I cant fight them, coz I'm schizophrenic
there're plenty of voices inside my head
they paint my mind with blue and red
they form images so abstract
I see myself in a mirror that’s cracked
some are dumb, some are wise
they speak the truth, they spout lies
some of them make sense, some defy logic
but I let them stay coz I'm schizophrenic
there're plenty of voices in my head
but I cant listen to everything being said
some of them talk dirty, and some talk funny
some crave peace, some worship money
which one do you wanna hear, take your pick
ya gotta realise that I'm schizophrenic
but I don’t want them to leave me alone
'coz all those voices are my very own
you think you know me?
no you dont
whut're you ?a gold digger?
dont try to figure me
I'm an iceman
dont try to thaw me
I wont break
if you run the saw on me
dont try to make me talk
dont turn the lights on
I like my room dark
dont mow my lawn
I'm a rock,see
dont sit on me
dont try to weigh me
just let me be
I am single
I'm the lone ranger
dont expect me to mingle
I dont talk to strangers
I wont let down my guard
dont try to befriend me
I wont play the buddy card
I aint torn,dont try to mend me
dont try to linger
I dont wanna hang out
I'll give you the finger
you wont last a single bout
but if you accept me
for what I am for who I am
I'll take you on my tour for free
on board my merry tram
if you see what my eyes see
if you dig how my mind ticks
I'll let you climb my tree
and I'll teach you all my tricks
if you hear what I hear
and smell what I smell
I'll let you near,dont fear
all my tales I shall tell
if you speak my lingo
yer in my band
I'll let you be Ringo
I'll give you my wand
welcome to my world
I know its pretty weird
your mind will swirl
with songs you've never heard
