Quicksilver Woman

Was it sanity you lost
when the forbidden line was crossed
or was your mind's eye open all along
that separated right from wrong
Was it pride that you swallowed
when you begged and borrowed
or was it merely staged
like the time the war was waged
Was it pain that you felt
when your naked soul knelt
before time and truth
stripped you of your youth
Was it love that you killed
when your chalice was filled
with wine from grapes of wrath
that promised a bitter sabbath
Was it fear that you embraced
when you were faced
with choices that hailed
for walls to be scaled
Was it hate that you spread
when your ego wasn't fed
and the mirrors spoke
of truth that'd awoke
Was it jealousy that arose
when the doors had closed
and wisdom beckoned
every wilting second
Was it change that dawned
when your hope fawned
and you turned back time
hoping to find your mind

Beasts of Bedlam

We're beasts of pain wandering in desolation
through imaginary deserts to an infinite horizon
we're lost mortals of the unseen maker
nomads seeking an eternal place in the sun

We're beasts of lust wandering in degeneration
through shallow cesspools as black as hell,
we're vain and naive in our stunted evolution
zombies programmed to think normalcy is swell

We're beasts of unrest wandering in desperation
through burnt prairies in search of salvation,
we're masked pretenders in one long masquerade
under the spell of the pseudo-shaman's incantation

We're beasts of greed wandering in disjunction
sailing on a frozen sea with contrived zeal,
we're chronic misfits on this lonely planet
fuelled by neurosis to destroy everything that's real

We're beasts of bedlam,conspiring high pandemonium
on this ancient paradise that we never owned,
The horsemen of apocalypse are lurking around the corner,
storm riders who will strike from gateways unknown

Carnival woman

My little child woman, remember when the carnival came to town
and you said you'll truly feel at home with all the jugglers and clowns
you ran gleefully after the pink cotton candy trail to stuff your face
but they tricked you and you fell under the spell of their cheap purple haze

My little child woman, remember when the carnival came to town
you thought the bears and the monkeys would help you wipe your frown
you were fooled by the phoney ringmaster who feigned bravery and power
and you ended up driving around circles in your broken bumper car

Remember the mad hatted uni-cyclist and the ferris wheel that made you tipsy?
the dwarf that walked on stilts and the scary crystal ball gypsy
Did you find joy in that masquerade of make believe and pretence?
why did it take you so long to realize that none of it made any sense?

My little child woman, remember when the carnival came to town
and you wanted to paint your face neon green at night and swirl around
But you never quite glowed in the dark because you never wanted to dream
how could you, when you were busy throwing pies coated with whipped cream

Remember the house of trick mirrors and the old sailor's talking parrot
they all had you running blind after a dangling half eaten carrot
and you ran into the top hatted , raven caped magician with his bag of illusions
your ecstasy vial was running on empty and you had to fight your delusions

My little child woman, remember when the carnival came to town
and you climbed onto the high trapeze, lost your grip and came crashing down
Alright , they all signed your broken arm cast and then you beamed with pride
but when the time came for them to close shop, you had no place to hide

Remember the tiger skin clad strong man on dope and the siamese twins
the acrobats on the tight rope and the worn out trampolines
Was that really the photograph you wanted to be framed in?
Aahh, but then it rained,oh how it poured and the center tent caved in…

Bohemian wanderer

Did you go chasing after wild horses?
you Bohemian wanderer,you lone ranger
the land of Giants beckons,with its forces
Are you welcome,you awkward stranger?

Or did you go swimming in turbulent waters?
in search of an island paradise,
seeking the hands of King's daughters
Are you awake now,are you wise?

Did you try flying among eagles?
were you trying to reach for the sun?
with your measured ascent,slow but regal
will you keep soaring,or are you already done?

Has the ego finally landed,will you stay?
have you gotten rid of your blinders?
'cause judgement day isn't far away
and you would'nt want to end up as an organ grinder.

Black and Light

The solitary flame's flicker has gone out
here I stand, shrouded in silent darkness,
the blind man no more,I think see much better now
doesn't it sound absurd,this ironic prowess?

The burning embers of the past settle softly on the floor
forming a black carpet silhouetting buried memories,
the acrid air around me burns my eyes ever more
I feel a stream of black in my swollen arteries

Now I'm trying to seek tranquility in solitary madness
I'm learning to balance the scales and find equilibrium,
No testaments to assure me that I'll get through unscathed
these superfluous scars I'll heal,with truth as my numbing opium

The solitary flame's flicker has gone out
here I stand, warped in static space and time
but I'll dust off all those clinging fears and doubts
don't need an artificial flame,I'll make my own sunshine...

Requiem for a Dream

Does it ever make you wonder
why some people are just passing through
those that you long to hold on to, just for a lifetime longer
choose to engulf you in their cloak of warmth, only to bid adieu

You marvel at the magic they’ve weaved over you
leaving you enthralled and entwined in its magnificent splendor
but only to turn all that golden brilliance to hues of dark blue
leaving the canvas unfinished with no masterpiece rendered

The random forces of destiny conspire to give you temporary wings
leaving you in total awe of its undecipherable patterns
random acts of kindness perhaps, these littlest things
but powerful and intense like an eternal glow from an unquenchable lantern

You then try and learn to admire without desiring, as a wise man said
and so you try and untie those gleaming fetters of possession
but then paranoia strikes to leave you cowering in apprehension and dread
as you are all too aware of the cruel smirks of Time’s undulations

Does it ever make you wonder
why some people are just passing through
perhaps they were only meant to make you ponder
what could have been if only marvelous dreams came true

Robes of silence

The lady's wrapped in robes of silence
I can see her ring finger's bare
the words from her lips are rare
mystic metaphors lace her parlance

I'm learnin',I'm still learnin'
to find out what her cryptic words mean
my patience is being stretched lean
but the flame of hope it keeps on burnin'

she's got hair of auburn,blazing
she's got eyes as black as coal
when she stares into my empty soul
I feel alive and a new hope is rising

I'm learnin,I'm still learnin'
to read the language of her eyes
she's as unpredictable as a pair of dice
the roulette wheel of time it keeps on turnin'

The lady's wrapped in robes of silence
she refuses to unveil her thoughts
she's left me to connect the dots
and picture what lies beyond her fence

O beleaguered pretender...

O beleaguered pretender,snap out of your trance
let the sands of remainders slip through your hands
your clocks stopped ticking, it needs to be wound
and stop scrounging around in lost and found

your mirror reflects the hole in your soul
the stained marble 'neath yer feet,aint it cold?
are you Rodin's Thinker,what're you contemplating?
sweep away burnt clinkers,stop hallucinating

O beleaguered pretender,snap out of your trance
dont you dare cast another backward glance
your past baggage will only pull you down
your shady visage will linger on low ground

your mirror reflects the man behind the mask
he's got the answers to the questions you seek to ask
help him unmask and break out of your shell
then you'll talk of the demons of fear that he fell

I'll keep walkin'

I've walked past hollow graves
got nothin' to look back upon
like a new song hitting the air waves
I could be a king or just a pawn

I'll keep walkin',till the end of the day
no cops on duty and no thieves
its just me alone on the highway
trudging through fallen leaves

I've walked past burning bridges
no need to cross them again
I've trashed all those crumpling ledgers
it seems I'm on uncharted terrain

I'll keep walkin',long journey into the night
I can hear the lone wolf howling
but I'm past beyond caring or fright
my mystic shadow's gone prowling

I've walked past tumbling towers
they never were really tall
fallen out of favour with masked powers
blind fools who've seeked my fall

I'll keep walkin',till another sunrise
I can see a new dawn awaken
bright sunlight wont blind my weary eyes
shallow dreams I've forsaken

I've walked through rumbling rainstorms
fallen into puddles and drenched to the bone
yearned for a lovers embrace to keep me warm
I'm gonna take her by the hand and lead her home

Fly beside me

Can you feel that wary frisson
I wish you were more lissome
when the twain does meet
ya gotta be up and on your feet
you think yer playing safe
and you treat me like a waif
but you know that yer wrong
to keep me waiting for so long
old scars ache,you start reminiscing
for heaven's sake,NOW is what yer missing
you think you'll get hurt again
but you wont,I know your pain
ya gotta learn to trust me
dont leave me alone or encrust me
I've got you in my sights
when I perch in my lofty heights
like an eagle from the sky
when I see you I soar high
the air on top is lonely
but that'll change if only
you decide to fly beside me
dont let the clouds hide me

Rap-sody in Blue

Trippin' over little things
hopin' for wondrous flings
quittin' in the boxing ring
gropin' like a blind king
life's gettin bitter how
I feel like a quitter now
trapped in this slaughter pit
deserted and I've lost my wit
there's a glimmer in sight
in this moonless night
the stars decide to bless me
they send you to fetch me
you throw me a rope
you fill me with hope
but I've afraid to grab it
are you the mystic white rabbit?
will you pull me out
will you slay my doubts
take me to your wonderland
my ships been flying unmanned
let me ride on your train of thought
and linger in your parking lot
but I find your air of silence
and your picket fence
quite unnerving,dont you feel
ain't I deserving,dont make me kneel
when you pass my way
check to cheek I wanna sway
see, the music's just begun
girl, you know I'm the one
Is this the song you need
to hear to make you heed
don't think I'm just flirtin'
ya know that I'm also courtin'
girl,walk into my life
I need you be my wife
we'll make a lovely scene
me the king and you my Queen

The Crimson river

'neath the campus grounds runs a crimson river
the lone gunner sought to take them all
the vengeful Class warrior, forced to pull the trigger
his aim was clear and final,the devil had called

these virgin lands of sacred learning
now blackened by this tragic crime of hate
not long before you see more stakes burning
up in arms they'll all be, oh cruel arms of fate

a wordsmith was he,but one engulfed by rage
the gun dwarfed the pen ,he spoke of being cornered
and now as the cops survey the bloody wreckage
they find he'd harbored delusions of a martyr's honor

32 rang the toll of dead,and plenty fighting to survive
the gunner scared of life,decided to take his own life too
'morrow these horrors will be recalled by those who're alive
only to find them being repeated,under another blood stained hue

The guardsmen have departed

The guardsmen have departed for a reason
deserting you in your hour of need
you think they oughta be tried for high treason
you shoulda stopped exploiting them for your greed

"you'll get by fine", one of them says
"but but ya gotta open your eyes",says the other
your smug faith has led you to decay
you gotta confess to your blood brother

the lone ranger , now you gotta stride
in search of truth ,to find your salvation
passing by strangers,to find your bride
yer riding through the sands of starvation

the guardsmen have departed for a reason
deserting you in your hour of need
its gonna be one long and lonesome season
but your gates are unwatched now,you've been freed

"call us when you need us" ,one of them says
"but weigh them with care,lest they're trivial", says the other
yer sails are ready for the seas, anchors aweigh
yer the captain and the crew,both as one and not another

the solitary sailor, now ya gotta sail
in search of honest shores to find your soul
your keel may get dented,but you shall not quail
your mortal flesh may flinch, ya gotta face the cold

the guardsmen have departed for a reason
deserting you in your hour of need
the crown of glory,it sure ain't free,son
the league of honor,ya gotta be worthy of its creed

Hope

What good is hope, when all it causes is intemperate hurt
when of all the things you seek,you are denied its comfort
what good is hope, when all it inflicts upon you is pain
when you seek eternal joy and only end up with refrain
what good is hope, when all you hear is its silence
when you seek its aural tingle but are left asking "whence"
what good is hope, when all you behold is its darkness
when the image of the love you seek is only an illusory mess
what good is hope, when everything you've craved for is denied
when the promise of amelioration decides to withdraw itself and hide
what good is hope, when you have lost your faith in Hope itself
for its elusive charms will someday smile upon you to help you find yourself

On the road again

Once yer past the gates,yer free to fly or fall
you'll probably end up getting stonewalled
go to her,she calls to you in silent whispers
but watch out that it don't cause no blisters

you've got miles to go before you cross the border
you've got plenty of rubber to burn,highway fodder
dont race too soon lest you swerve off track
but dont slow down yet,else you'll fall way back

there're signposts erected all along the footpath
watch the traffic,you dont want no bloodbath
better get yer blinkers fixed,son,they've gone dead
gotta let her know the direction in which yer headed

your highway's leading straight to the truth
can you feel the heat beneath your boots?
doesn't the hot leather make you squirm?
ya know yer on trial, ya gotta stay firm

Flying High

I'm flying high,high over these lonely roads
passing over uncrowned treetrunks
high over fallen hedgerows
I guess my fears are now defunct

I'm flying high,high over these misty mountains
soaring past eagles,brave and proud
high over these barren sands
I guess I've risen above the crowd

I'm flying high,high over ravaged meadows
passing through clouds,white and pure
high over these deserted shores
I guess I've found my cure

I'm flying high,high over these stormy seas
soaring past those false horizons
I've found serenity and peace
I guess a new dawn's sun has risen

Call to arms

The pipers at the gates,sounding his final clarion
you're running late, but you've got to carry on
there're unfinished deals waiting to be sealed
forgotten promises to be kept and faith to be healed
the hourglass is running on empty,slow down oh sands of time
things to do aplenty,your indecision is but,a punishable crime
past glories have been laid to rest in search of fresh battles
fear not the hot iron brand,run free among unherded cattle
revel in those frenetic moments over uncharted realms
feast in the meadows of evergreen hopes and dreams
and feed those famished desires till they come to life
the august harvest is at arms reach and the time is ripe
to spring into shoots from subterranean roots of fear
let not another chance pass by,for it will cost you dear
for the hallows of past regrets will haunt you, perennial
and you'll find yourself battling against constant denial
for what is a victory if not laced with loss and harm
never hesitate to loudly answer the call to arms
as the hour of glory draws closer,the battlelines have been drawn
courage and might shall take you through to see victorious dawns

Until you speak

Until you speak,
my heart will wait
along this silent creek
for the flow of words,innate?

until you speak,
I will refrain
from sharing dreams I seek,
dormant,its seeds shall remain

until you speak,
the truth won't brandish
if its mighty or weak,
to feed a soul,famished

until you speak,
hope's dove will stay caged
an olive branch on its beak,
craving for peace to be waged

Distorted clarity

Transient regret,wrought,repeatedly
time,rewound and replayed,then and now
deja vu - redux concoction,deadly
feverish beads of sweat cling to the brow

Silent shadow of trepidation,tailed
ready for ambush,if unheeded,refrain
potential amelioration,wantonly curtailed
left only to revel in time's vestigial remains

Fallacies held in high esteem,fallen
from grace,to the nadir of acceptance
hope ,now dispersed in fine pollen
the heart now wanders,freelance

Pragmatic Delirium

"I want it back",my heart bemoans
on replaying stashed memories
incongruous to current revelries
instead,warped in lost time zones

trade-offs bordering toward compromise
progress bequeathed,surprisingly,deserved?
questioning myself on such vagaries,absurd
still stuck in twilight,waiting for the red giant to rise

transcending reality,hallucinating fantasies
lost never to be found,fragrance still lingers
crushed into fragments,by insensitive fingers
would it be any better to act delirious with infantine delinquencies?

Refrain

Sanguine was my heart
a lilting melody played on, byheart
of memories that bequeath joy and sorrow
refusing to leave,till eternal tomorrow
ameloriating hope and reviving dreams,lost
now lay melting, the ice and frost
by thinking of clinging to her warmth
taciturn she remained,having led me to harm
inflecting all notions and trust
that have been laid down now to die of rust
overweighed by anguish and catharsis
'twas doomed from its genesis

Leaving season

The pangs of unfound glory
keep roaring in agony
my ode to joy
transposed to a bittersweet symphony
haunting melodies with multiple cadences
interrupted
let the music play on
for hope to be resurrected

I crave tranquility
and conversely I crave redemption
come back to grant me serenity
come back to grant me elation
make my twisted mind of jealousy and hate
turn toward love and reason
all my leaves have fallen
I'm downcast
its been a long leaving season

Through your mind's mazes

I've been knocking on your door,trying to get inside your crib
I dont wanna get my knuckles sore,just lemme be on this trip
lemme get inside your head,take me to your sacred places
girl,I aint posing no threat,I just wanna run through your minds mazes

I wanna hear your inner voices and delve in your thoughts
I wanna understand your choices,but please dont make me draw lots
lemme be part of your dreams,lemme walk beside you
lemme swim in your streams,but dont leave me down and blue

I'm tryin to figure you out,but I need your help to get me started
I know you have your doubts,but please dont leave my hopes thwarted
you dont know me yet, but dont think of me as just someone in a sea of faces
girl,I aint posing no threat,I just wanna run through your minds mazes

halloween of love

It has punctured holes in my boat
I've come to the end of the tale she wrote
a tale of despair and heartbreak
I'm think I'm gonna drown in this lake
the truth delayed is as bad as lying
she didnt know that and I was buying
now I know the twain shall never meet
its the eternal season of trick or treat
its what I call the halloween of love
I've called truce and released the white dove

Its been a-while since I smiled

Theres a whole lotta things goin on
its aint new,been goin on for long
I'm sick of being put on trial
its been a while since I smiled

why does everybody have to fake it
these damn illusions,I cant take it
the fetid air around me smells like bile
and its been a while since I smiled

disease of loneliness' got me infected
it sure aint what I wanted or expected
forming bonds does require a lotta guile
its been a while since I smiled

I should never have locked myself in my closet
no water ever seems to flow outta the faucet
I have no ones number on speed dial
amd its been a while since I smiled

but dont blame me for not tryin to reach out
I do my bit,but I always strike out
why do I havta walk that extra mile
its been a while since I smiled

Broken glass

I'm sippin water out of a broken glass
no desire to get high,no need for grass
I've got no craving to get sauced or stoned
I'm feeling like a fish thats been boned

the hucksters been sent back on his way
I never did like him or want him to stay
hes got other naive people to fool
hes gonna drown them in their own pool

I'm sippin water out of a broken glass
my veins are ready to explode,they've reached critical mass
I've got no craving to get sauced or stoned
I feel like a king that's just been dethroned

the clowns have been sent away
its manic depression in the middle of may
the verdicts out,its judgement day
sentenced for life,they're gonna put me away

I'm sippin water out of a broken glass
my sea of sorrow now seems so vast
I've been abandoned and left behind,all alone
these sins that've led me here are all my own

the hangman has been sent for,he's almost here
I can feel the noose tighten,I can feel the fear
I'm being released from this mortal hell
but I'm gonna ride straight to heaven,I think I'm gonna be well

Redemption song

Redemption seems far away
but fate looks right this way
I've been running like hell
aint counting the times I fell
Its just me and the road
nothings gonna leave me floored

no ones after me,and theres no one I'm after
when I look away,I hear manic laughter
I'm losing my grip on reality
my eyes glazing with insanity
someone better have me caged
I'm a wounder tiger,enraged

I aint committed no crime
yet I'm treated like grime
they think they're so clean
lookit the roles they feign
surrounded by people so blind
in a web they've got 'em entwined

they're full of crap and deceit
they lie shamlessly thru their teeth
but I've seen their true colors
all a bunch of oarless scullers
I'll make sure they sink to the bottom
of that river,and I'll yell "got 'em"

Sculpting destiny

Wading in the shallow pools of sorrow
never seen summer,nor heard spring
of withered leaves and shrivelled trees
illusions are all that one can cling to
of songbirds and their tunes of joy
of eternal springs and pristine streams
that water plethoric beds of violets and daffodils
seeping through to the undergrowth
and granting eternal hope for those yet to bloom
the very soul of dreams and beyond
fraught with pretentious perils and shallow temptations
enticing pain and ecstacy with its double edged blade
gilded with jewel stones of courage and fear
each vision chosen by the eye with its natural perspective
of paramount importance lay the choices we make
and the paths that leads us to glory or perdition
to enchanted woods or arid wastelands
falter in action but never in consent
blame shant fall on fellow pedestrians
but on the vote cast by the mind without the heart
never flinch for choice is inevitable
in all its sadistic glory it shall prevail
'twill be a worthy fellow traveller if not a guide
that equips us for sculpting our destiny

Cynic clinic

Fancy words dont charm her,
theres no use getting lyrical
coz she'll always remain cynical
yer never gonna turn the corner
does it make you sick?
pay a visit to the cynic clinic

acting nice dont please her
being a gent wont really pay
with her you're never in the fray
she'll think you're trying to con her
does it make you feel like a prick?
pay a visit to the cynic clinic

you might start acting kooky
that turns her on like crazy
but you're too mature for that you see
thats how it crumbles,the cookie
cant figure out what makes her tick?
pay a visit to the cynic clinic

now and then she'll give you a peek
to revive yer sagging hope
you'll feel high like yer on dope
she'll then knock you down, you freak
do you need a walkin stick?
pay a visit to the cynic clinic

you'll get back on yer feet
and start lookin elsewhere
you'll forget her you swear
but ya know thats no mean feat
looking to learn a new trick?
pay a visit to the cynic clinic

and when you find new dames
you'll start comparing them to her
you'll have to play those mind games
when will you learn you square?
does it make you sick?
pay a visit to the cynic clinic

Roulette wheel women

she'll twirl you around her finger
and cut you like a saw
she'll hate you if you linger
whatever ya do she'll hum and haw

with a ring you'll propose
you'll getdown on your knees
you will try poetry and prose
but you'll never feel at ease

do you feel yer mind swimming?
stay away from roulette wheel women

she knows what you want
she'll test your resolve
and make you think you cant
she'll tell you that you need to evolve

you'll fall for her head over heels
and tell her that she makes you complete
you'll think thats how she too feels
you'll think no one else can compete

do you feel yer mind swimming?
stay away from roulette wheel women

she'll say you're a crazy fool
she'll say you dont understand her needs
she'll tellya to get back to love school
she'll tellya to sow a bunch of new seeds

you just dont get it,do you
you'll never learn the tricks of the trade
you'll only end up a deep shade of blue
and your painful memories wont fade

do you feel yer mind swimming?
stay away from roulette wheel women