Its been a-while since I smiled

Theres a whole lotta things goin on
its aint new,been goin on for long
I'm sick of being put on trial
its been a while since I smiled

why does everybody have to fake it
these damn illusions,I cant take it
the fetid air around me smells like bile
and its been a while since I smiled

disease of loneliness' got me infected
it sure aint what I wanted or expected
forming bonds does require a lotta guile
its been a while since I smiled

I should never have locked myself in my closet
no water ever seems to flow outta the faucet
I have no ones number on speed dial
amd its been a while since I smiled

but dont blame me for not tryin to reach out
I do my bit,but I always strike out
why do I havta walk that extra mile
its been a while since I smiled